This post is excerpted from a publication the Diesel staff put out in May 2006 called “Work”. This is the first half of an essay by my best friend and co-owner Tucker Lewis. The illustrations are also by Tucker Lewis recovered from various scraps of paper, hours sheets for staff to sign out on, birthday cards, or notes passed between our two offices.
“The Original Diesel Love Story”

“I guess it started with coincidence, a lot of it. Perhaps a different way to see it is as a tale of impeccable timing. Some may look to something larger, but to me that something seems nothing more than a whole lot of dumb luck. I might be able to suspend my disbelief a bit further to a slightly more scientific approach. For example, Newton’s Law of Gravity, which states that every particle on the planet is attracted to every other particle, and that each particle attracts another at a force that is determined by their proportionate masses and is inversely proportional to their proximity. Therefore, it stands to reason that she and I were almost bound to intersect, she being an arguable inch shy of five feet and a few pounds under one hundred and me standing not one hair taller or one pound heavier. Gravity had us moving towards each other with a precisely equal and relative pull, complimented by the fact that we had been sharing the same general radius for the better part of our individual lives.

The history of a single intersection will never cease to amaze me. I don’t gamble, but I know enough to know to know that the odds are against it. It doesn’t just begin with the events that unfolded on that fifth of December a decade prior. You can forget about those. Forget about the fact that I hit snooze an extra time that morning, or hit three greens on my way to work, followed by five long reds. And forget about the school bus releasing small people on the opposite of Concord Ave, forcing me to stop the required fifteen foot distance for what seemed like fifteen minutes too long. Forget that I arrived at my destination on Dunster Street that day some 22 minutes later than I should have. And similarly, we can forget everything that happened to her that same brisk winter day; everything that
landed her at that Harvard Square corner at the exact moment that I was frantically running by. We can forget it all because it is too big to think about. We can simply purge the thought of every detail, not only on that day, but on every day that came prior. One huge, way-too-elaborate, mathematical mindfuck. Each moment had to go just the way it did, from the precise instant that sperm greeted egg in order to facilitate the navigation of our collective gravitation. And it gets exponentially bigger because each detail matters in the lives that came first and brought us here. If my grandfather’s grade school teacher hadn’t decided to do the seating assignment in reverse alphabetical order that first day of his fourth grade year, who knows what other girl might have sat in front of him and taunted him
with her mesmerizing braids of molasses. Without them I am nothing. And without their parents they are nothing and on an on backwards as far as we can conceive. Every last fucking moment exactly the same, otherwise, it’s all different. So, automatically, our story begins with more dumb luck than I can imagine, with an infinite (and by that I mean a totally countless) number of details dictating our intersection. But for the sake of space and sanity, let’s try to start the story where it faux-begins. Mass Ave and Dunster, we intersect.
Recently, I was telling a story about my grandmother getting mugged on the T when I was about 8 years old. I distinctly remember her calmly and matter-of-factly stating that the mugger probably
needed the money more than her and that she hoped it would help him in his life. It was an early lesson in optimism, one of the few things I would grow to actually excel at, arguably to a fault. But really, my “sunny side” as it is often unaffectionately referred to, is largely beside the point. The point is more one of memory. If you think about it one way, every last second of every day is memorable, but virtually all of them are oddly and easily forgettable, or at least forgotten, or more generously, misplaced. And I was thinking about that I as I was retelling the story of my grandmother’s mugging. It wasn’t a particularly poignant circumstance. Even at the time I recall feeling as if it was just part of life and one of those things that just happens, at least that’s how it seemed, judging from
my grandmother’s reaction. Yet here I stand, some twenty-eight years later retelling the story and I realize that it is one of the very few that has actually stuck around and not succumb to the near inevitable abyss of misplaced memories. In the moment it is near impossible to recognize the ones that someday you will choose to sew together to title your history. I guess in a way, I see this love story as one of those moments. A meeting of chance, that at the time seemed not distinctly different than any other coincidental point of greeting. And although the fast friendship and four-year love affair that followed were admittedly unique, it was still accompanied by a sense of misunderstanding of significance. It isn’t every day that you intersect with someone with which there is unquestionable
connect, so this in and of itself should scream summersaults and jump off the page. Yet sometimes you need the benefit of time to reveal the picture, fuller. Sometimes it is impossible to glean the impact of a single detail until you are allowed the luxury of distance to understand the actual magnitude and how something so big can come out of something so very small. Without the improbable intersection, Mass Ave and Dunster, there would stand no Diesel at the corners of Elm and Chester. That much I’m sure of. And I don’t like to think about my life as the unending series of near-misses that it certainly is, but at a certain point it’s difficult not to. It’s difficult to imagine Diesel would have remained this massive mass of potential energy bouncing around, instead of the heap of kinetic that became, had I not hit snooze an extra time on that December morning. And that is not yet to mention the other half of my equation, my best friend, my business partner, my accomplice in crime, Parky. So integral, so entwined, so inextricable that I can’t imagine my hours without her.”

to be continued…..